Chronicling the days that were

It has been a while since my last post here, I guess. I have been hovering from being a domesticated mermaid to being a not- so- ready- to teach professor. The mind was way too out of focus for so many days and it was indeed a challenge to be centered. I guess I have anxiety attack. I was  way too ahead from what was supposed to happen. Slowly, painstakingly, I am getting attuned again.

School is opening this Monday but I am not very conditioned yet to go back. The K-12 thing is beginning to come into full view and I can sense that it will truly affect me and many of the teachers. There is always a better world out there after two years. Still, I couldn't help but worry. Om shanti, shanti.

It's Fathers' day tomorrow and I honestly could not grasp indifference I feel towards my father. Our relationship may not be as close as before, but deep within my core, I know I love him dearly and I am grateful for everything.

My practice has been progressing. The teacher has been giving me many poses in the second series. I am grateful that he believes in me. I will keep on practicing until everything will come.

Namaste!

MY PAPA

I have lived a very independent life for a while now.I have done things on my own. This means that I have made right and wrong decisions and I put all the blame on me for whatever messy consequences I am getting from these choices. I have made myself into the person I want to be..all because of me but wait...

I wouldnt have been here without the guidance of two very important people who are given to me as  my caretakers as I journey through this LIFE.These people are very imperfect ones, just like anybody else.Despite their flaws, they have managed to bring me and my siblings up, in good and bad times.MY MOM and MY DAD are the very first persons who happened to deal patiently with my all.

I have grown feeling that I am closer to my dad than to my mom.Since mom is more of a domisticated kind of woman, it is always dad who would take time to spend hours with me and my siblings telling all those humorous stories taken from I know not where sources.There is always laughter in the house.There are always good lectures from different areas each time.Dad is always the great storyteller.He always exudes that passion.I have taken mine after him.

He is a great teacher.There is no question about that.I admire his work ethics and his principles in life.He does not bend to a crooked system.He fights for it.He says his piece even if everybody will hate him after.He knows what's right and does it...It took him a while to quit smoking though.

I find strength in him.His passion for music is overwhelming,Music actually is what makes our family harmonize. This serves is our link.I have missed the days when all we could do was just sing.

Today I would like to honor this great man.I am living an independent life ..YES, but i wouldnt have been here without my dad's strength.His own way of expressing his affection for us is very touching.

Thank you Papa for everything.For the wisdom behind all the things you've shown us.I wish you more of life's blessings. HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!