Dreadful comeback

I am a yogin, an ashtangi, at that. I need to be reminded that whatever it is that I am going through is part and parcel of my entire yogic practice. I need to recognize the fact that my joy and peace aren't rooted from my job and from the people I encounter everyday. I can always find it within me. No one has the capacity to make things work for me without my permission.

My  break is almost over and I honestly can say that this is the first time that I dread going back to work at the University. I feel I don't anymore belong to the system. I wonder why everything became dreary. Is it just because of my hormones or is the universe really leading me somewhere better than where I am?

I need to be in a place where the energy is smooth, I am tired of the travel. The pollution is killing me. People's pretenses are very overwhelming.

I love my students but dear Universe, please let me love myself too.

Om,

Yoga today

There is always something about yoga that sweeps me off my feet. After my struggle of boredom, aimlessness and resignation for few days, today's practice was just so intense that I could not anymore decipher how I survived the rest of the poses in the second series. (Oh, thank you teacher Jon for giving me those three pretzel-like asanas) The breathing, the sweat and the energy of the women and my teacher inside the shala were enough reasons for me to be grateful.

Yoga saved me again from wallowing in my own self-emptying. It allowed me to go back to my very core...my beautiful self. It gave me the strength once more to live even just today in peace. It allowed me to clearly see the most important things in life. I am grateful to all the teachers for this gift.

Being with my like minds also inspired me to be happy again. I am very thankful for today.

Namaste everyone!

Find time to appreciate the little joys in life today.

Just noting

It's my first time to blog using my iPod.I am resting on my favorite mat on the floor on this cozy saturday afternoon. It's the first day of my monthly ordeal and I feel that so much of my energy is flowing out. Lower back pains are bearable but disturbing so I have no choice but rest. The practice today was fine though a bit heavy . I didn't know that my period served me in the middle of my asanas. I was glad I was able to do my full practice with full back bends and drop backs. That was a gift!


Lunch consisted of tuna sandwich and carrot bar with four seasons juice.on my way out, I passed by Sony ericsson display area and I was captivated by it's latest design. I stopped for a moment and requested for the reddish color but they told me it's not available.now, my penchant for red gadgets overwhelmed ne again. Anyway,great songs are playing right now on my favorite fm station. Guess what? I'm feeling so comfy just being in my place but I'm still wishing I was somewhere far..,in the beach alone with my books or with someone who would make my
heart beat again ...Ahhh this weather is just great!

LOVELY MOONDAY FOR ME!

It's a moon day today and I am so glad because the universe has given me the gift of peace both in body and mind.It's ironic though because for the past few moon day cycles I was the usual lethargic self all through out the day but today is a differenr one.I woke up a bit heavy though but it was just for a few minutes.Perhaps the practice last night helped. I had stiff neck too since yesterday but LO and behold, I am up and about now.I had few breathing practices this morning on the mat.I also tried doing preliminaries for the headstand but I had to stop because I fell on my few attempts.I need a guru to lead me...in time.
 


my tuna pansit with baguio beans


Someone screened my windows so I was a bit busy doing few errands for him.I have also cooked my simple pansit with tuna and baguio beans  for breakfast. I didnt have much food stored in the house so I cooked whatever ingredients were at hand.It was a great meal though.


Kenny Rankin was also playing on my computer.I was a bit nostalgic when I heard What Matter Most because for the longest time, this has been my favorite letting go song.This would be my song again as I am going to be saying farewell soon to someone.Ahhh, life.


Anyway, it's a different moon day this time.My energy is so steady.I hope this lasts till my period comes out.I like the wind too.It's cool.It's such a lovely day.Im grateful for today, my LORD!

GREAT practice tonight

Talking about energy that's awesome, I just had it tonight.With the other women at the shala, I felt that the universe has opened up its horizon to all of us who wished to be at home with ourselves again.


Teacher Nature was early and she took time to chat with us while waiting for the others.She was very human when she told me she's in denial with teacher jon leaving soon.I could only smile and told her we need to let him go.Of course, i said that with a kind of a heavy heart.I also have my episodes of denial knowing my last classes with him are a way too short.Still, i am beginning to pray for him for a safe and blessed journey out there.


I felt so light while the practice went on.There were less thoughts getting in my way. It was a total surrender of desires, of worries, of expectations, of hopes and of pains.I am very certain my prayers were heard.


The practice ended with a great savasana.I am again ready to sleep soundly.I said goodnight to Nature and the rest of the women.I told them it was a great practice tonight.It was indeed.I went home peaceful.I laughed a lot during my classes with Jully.Priceless!


It's hot now but I dont mind.My body has been conditioned enough at the shala.This heart is happy.This self is renewed This soul is strong for I have the UNIVERSE backing me up...always!


Namaste!

Energy please

I am supposed to be transcribing the interviews I've conducted this week but I havent done any single step of the entire process yet. My mind is so busy about other things that arent really necessary.I just have my cycle almost completed and  I still feel lethargic at times. I have also been busy doing my own errands like paying my bills, having my warts treated, checking things at home and resting at the same time.


My mind is busy ..YES! I havent practiced yoga for almost a week now so I guess I have to attend the 6:30 pm class at the shala. Because I will do so, it would mean I have to cancel some of my classes online.I am hoping there would be more opportunities to attend morning practices this month.I wish I can already make it to a mysore class .Praying for this.OM.


Tonight's practice will be offered for healing not only for my tired body and mind but also to those in pain of any form out there.I also would like to honor the GOD who has always been faithful to me despite and inspite of my frailties.


May the UNIVERSE grant me serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I still can and the wisdom to know the difference. (My favorite prayer)


This self is moving on.Energy, please.