Saturday, June 14, 2014

Chronicling the days that were

It has been a while since my last post here, I guess. I have been hovering from being a domesticated mermaid to being a not- so- ready- to teach professor. The mind was way too out of focus for so many days and it was indeed a challenge to be centered. I guess I have anxiety attack. I was  way too ahead from what was supposed to happen. Slowly, painstakingly, I am getting attuned again.

School is opening this Monday but I am not very conditioned yet to go back. The K-12 thing is beginning to come into full view and I can sense that it will truly affect me and many of the teachers. There is always a better world out there after two years. Still, I couldn't help but worry. Om shanti, shanti.

It's Fathers' day tomorrow and I honestly could not grasp indifference I feel towards my father. Our relationship may not be as close as before, but deep within my core, I know I love him dearly and I am grateful for everything.

My practice has been progressing. The teacher has been giving me many poses in the second series. I am grateful that he believes in me. I will keep on practicing until everything will come.


    Thursday, June 5, 2014

    the world upside down

    Photo: Someone's patiently paying attention on the sideline. My newfound doggie friend. #yoga #headstand#life
    while headstanding. the dog on the sideline just patiently watched. 'twas a sight worth remembering. taken at White Castle Beach Resort, Calatagan, Batangas
     Life is not devoid of uncertainties. It is, on the contrary, so full of them. It is always a lesson learn the hard way for me. Nothing in this world is beyond our grasp-our future included. More than anything else, life is not lived in a linear kind of way. At times, we need to defy the usual pattern we are trudging in order for us to find our way back to where we are supposed to belong. Of course, this is rebellion in the real sense of the word. Doing the not so ordinary feat is above all--SCARY-- but it's worth it, I believe so.

    The world upside down is no less than the world that I don't normally trod. I find it amusing that I can  defy gravity and still emerge solid. In a world where everything is laid before us ,with all its trappings, I can see that there is something beyond this state than the naked eyes can decipher. I figure that out when I bravely breathe and make detours on my own.Scary, yes, but life is not constant. Only those who dare truly live.

    Yoga teaches me that there are other possibilities out there. All I need is take that leap, breathe, and let go.