Tuesday, May 31, 2011

A Crazy ORDEAL

 
A woman suffering from PMS photo
from google images

 If there's one thing I'd like to change about myself, it would really be my PMS stage.I dislike the cycle every month knowing I become a terrible person wholly.Hormonal imbalance is such a huge thing for me at this time.I'm glad I regularly do my breathing exercises.Yoga does help BIG TIME.



I am not comfortable when my temper becomes short.It makes me think Im a bad person.This month's ordeal proved to be a heinous one.(With a big grin!) It's my family back home who became the victim of my being a warrior.My judgment was equally unthought of and I ended up being nasty.My mom was all the time suprised about all my reactions and my sister wasn't an   excemption either.I became too confrontational about petty things.




I ended up tired too and i just wanted to linger in bed the whole time.My classes were not that inspiring at times and I wished in my head my students would call in sick.I still wanted to fight my lethargy though and I was thankful I survived each day. There were things I needed to do but I simply couldn't do them rightly.My crying spell was also huge.I felt I was too ugly to face people.Generally, I was like a new creature...badly created.



My period has arrived finally and I was thinking I would become better but NO. At least on its first day, I was fine.In fact, I went out with a friend to watch a great movie.The second day was hell.My whole body was in pain.My breathing was labored still I tried to breathe as normal as possible.Doing the child's pose helped. I was simply not in control with my pains and moods on this day.I ended up not teaching my late classes.I was thankful the connection wasnt that good.It was a nice excuse to pass.



The only prayers I could muster were I'm sorry and please heal me.The sense of helplessness and surrender  were very significant during those moments.I was glad I was able to sleep soundly with good dreams still.



I guess I am a bit alright now because I could already write in here.Normal thoughts are coming in and out naturally.I still feel the pains in my abdomen and back though but it's already bearable.My moods and feelings are quite stable.I can already sing good tunes.Last song syndrome...Hey, look at the sun, it's finally shining on my life....



This monthly ordeal truly hampers my life's activity.I actually dont seriously wish that it would vanish.As I am becoming more mature in age,  I know that this is part of it.I could always fail in my means of dealing with people specially my loved ones.I am not alone on this battle.In fact, there are countless women out there who have suffer more PMS difficulties than I do.It pays to be more aware of one's cycle.It also is helpful to be more forgiving to oneself during these moments.



I remember I told my GOD I'm so tired of this.The thought of overcoming the seemingly endless pains, mood swings, depressive moments was way too heavy for me but then, I am necessarily a woman simply because I can bear all things so what better way to rise than having this fact?I bet my CREATOR knows what HE is about and HE knows my ordeal too.HE understands my laments.



I am glad for the gift of awareness about my body.I know that next month I am gonna be hurdling similar ordeal.I have yoga to back me up and I guess it wouldnt hurt much if I would  ask my MAKER to just ease my suffering a bit for the sake of my family who would be coming over to visit me.



I can see the sun smiling at me now.I have passed the ordeal and I am glad I become a month wiser in the way I deal with pains.I need to hug my body more by the way.I was a bit harsh on her when I blamed her about things.It's alright my Jen.(with a big smile,)



I have a clearer vision now of what to do for the next couple of weeks.Thesis writing, meeting with my mentor, teaching, going to the doctor.dentist and of course doing yoga.



My ordeal this month was crazy but I survived.My strength is stronger than my PMS.I'm grateful to the UNIVERSE for leading me back home to myself again.



To all the women who have the same ordeal or even worse than I have....know that you're not alone.WE ARE WOMEN and we are STRONG.



NAMASTE Everyone.Praying for healing to those who are in any form of pain.OM.

Friday, May 27, 2011

Jack Johnson - Upside Down


I was wanting to feel good on a tiring Saturday morning so i decided to listen to Jack Johnson's music.I came across two of his videos but I was more energized watching Curious George.If only our childlike nature surfaced above most of the time, i guess life would be a bit easier to get by.I am a free spirit yes, but there are certain days that I just want to linger in bed or mope at a corner.Thanks to Jack for the great music.I have always been a huge fan.This cute thing in George is simply adorable.


Now, why the heck would i feel lousy.I have to get up and get ready.I need to breathe. It's yoga day.




My mantra for today.


There's no stopping curiousity.OM.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

So it's Scotty this time!

S

This young man is humble enough that he earned the respect of America and I guess the whole world as well.I love his voice.It's not actually outstanding but he has that unique tone that makes him a stand out in the competition.I thought at first he would just situate himself singing laidback country music but he could actually do other genre too.He has that charming feature in him that is a plus factor.


This season has been blessed with great contenders.I got my favorite in the person of Paul McDonald.I honestly believe he would not be crowned as the IDOL but he is of course so awesome.Very unique! Between Scotty and Lauren though, I am rooting for the male.I guess it's because I can clearly identify the uniqueness of his voice.


It was not an impressive result for me however.I was hoping it would be Casey or James.Anyway, America has spoken.Scotty McCreery is the MAN. He may be young but I can honestly see that he would make it BIG in the music industry.Cool headed as he is...that's a trait of an IDOL I would say.

Random thoughts 2

The week has been a great one.This heart is again grateful.Except for a seemingly lethargic body (woman thing) I still have accomplished so much that I couldnt even keep track of them all.My mind can only recall few major highlights that have made my week awesome.


Starting off with  me having completed my interviews.Except for one who hasnt met me yet for further clarifications, my four women have been generous enough to spend their time with me and really pour their hearts out as we went on with our my interviews/chat. I gave myself one month to complete everything but the Universe has allowed me to finish things before the month ends.HAPPY!                                             





                   Meet My Women
Jen Riazon of IBM





Crischel Cruz of JP Morgan & Chase

AC Adap of Startek

Cherry Alemania of Transcom Asia

My friend Amy who has introduced me to the four women

I am very grateful to Amy for having introducing me to the four women.Without her, I bet I would still be looking for interviewees this time.This self is glad to have her as my friend.










A simple ice cream party in the house with Amy's siblings also made my week relaxing.It's priceless chilling with simple folks and spending an afternoon just laughing out with our silly jokes. There's just  nothing like one laid back ice cream party.Watching Kung Fu Panda with them , (without Donn) was equally cool too.





It has also been a while since I went out with my Lora.Unexpectedly we had the chance to hear mass together at the EDSA shrine then lunch at his office.It was nice reminiscing with him our great moments with the choir.Ahhh, we're just very  noisy and nosy churchgoers.





To top it all, my yoga practices were also great.I had done one at home and I was able to attend one on a Thursday evening.I love the energy around the shala.Tomorrow's gonna be another yoga day but right now I am already very thankful that despite the odds this week, I was still able to pull through.There were setbacks in between days but the universe had always plan things ahead.





As my channels are opened each time, more great energies are coming in .I guess I wont survive without people around that really matter to me and my faith that has proven been strong as ever.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

The Scroll Marked V by Og Mandino

We dont exactly know when the hour comes when we would have our last day on earth.I dont condemn people who calculate the end time but my notion is steadfast.
We are all mortals and certainly we would go and leave this impermanent world.Each day therefore is a chance for me to do what I'm supposed to do so that when I would finally face my Maker, He would be pleased to have be back.


Here's one great piece that  has been my inspiration as I live my life as a pilgrim here on Earth.





from google images
                               
I will live this day as if it is my last.
And what shall I do with this last precious day, which remains in my keeping? First, I will seal up its container of life so that not one drop spills itself upon the sand. I will waste not a moment mourning yesterday’s misfortunes, yesterday’s defeats, yesterday’s aches of the heart, for why should I throw good after bad?
Can sand flow upward in the hourglass? Will the sun rise where it sets and set where it rises? Can I relive the errors of yesterday and right them? Can I call back yesterday’s wounds and make them whole? Can I become younger than yesterday? Can I take back the evil that was spoken, the blows that were struck, the pain that was caused? No. Yesterday is buried forever and I will think of it no more.

I will live this day as if it is my last.
And what then shall I do? Forgetting yesterday neither will I think of tomorrow. Why should I throw now after maybe? Can tomorrow’s sand flow through the glass before today’s? Will the sun rise twice this morning? Can I perform tomorrow’s deeds while standing in today’s path? Can I place tomorrow’s gold in today’s purse? Can tomorrow’s child be born today? Can tomorrow’s death cast its shadow backward and darken today’s joy? Should I concern myself over events, which I may never witness? Should I torment myself with problems that may never come to pass? No! Tomorrow lies buried with yesterday, and I will think of it no more.

I will live this day as if it is my last.
This day is all I have and these hours are now my eternity. I greet this sunrise with cries of joy as a prisoner who is reprieved from death. I lift mine arms with thanks for this priceless gift of a new day. So too, I will beat upon my heart with gratitude as I consider all who greeted yesterday’s sunrise who are no longer with the living today. I am indeed a fortunate man and today’s hours are but a bonus, undeserved. Why have I been allowed to live this extra day when others, far better than I have departed? Is it that they have accomplished their purpose while mine is yet to be achieved? Is this another opportunity for me to become the man I know I can be? Is there a purpose in nature? Is this my day to excel?

I will live this day as if it is my last.
I have but one life and life is naught but a measurement of time. When I waste one I destroy the other. If I waste today I destroy the last page of my life. Therefore, each hour of this day will I cherish for it can never return. It cannot be banked today to be withdrawn on the morrow, for who can trap the wind? Each minute of this day will I grasp with both hands and fondle with love for its value is beyond price. What dying man can purchase another breath though he willingly give all his gold? What price dare I place on the hours ahead? I will make them priceless!

I will live this day as if it my last.
I will avoid with fury the killers of time. Procrastination I will destroy with action; doubt I will bury under faith; fear I will dismember with confidence. Where there are idle mouths I will listen not; where there are idle hands I will linger not; where there are idle bodies I will visit not. Henceforth I know that to court idleness is to steal food, clothing, and warmth from those I love. I am not a thief. I am a man of love and today is my last chance to prove my love and my greatness.

I will live this day as if it is my last.
The duties of today I shall fulfill today. Today I shall fondle my children while they are young; tomorrow they will be gone, and so will I. Today I shall embrace my woman with sweet kisses; tomorrow she will be gone, and so will I. Today I shall lift up a friend in need; tomorrow he will no longer cry for help, nor will I hear his cries. Today I shall give myself in sacrifice and work; tomorrow I will have nothing to give, and there will be none to receive.

I will live this day as if it is my last.
And if it is my last, it will be my greatest monument. This day I will make the best day of my life. This day I will drink every minute to its full. I will savor its taste and give thanks. I will maketh every hour count and each minute I will trade only for something of value. I will labor harder than ever before and push my muscles until they cry for relief, and then I will continue. I will make more calls than ever before. I will sell more goods than ever before. I will earn more gold than ever before. Each minute of today will be more fruitful than hours of yesterday. My last must be my best.

I will live this day as if it is my last. And if it is not, I shall fall to my knees and give thanks.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

It's a moon day


from google images

I was supposed to practice yoga with my new friend Ginger at the studio today when she sent me a message telling me it's a moon day and there's got to be no usual practice this time.Oh yeah! So i readily had to search on moon days and yoga practices.

I remember I had attended two yoga classes on moon days before and my teachers really DID emphasize that it's not really advisable to practice during these days as nature is way so strong.No wonder my gurus had to make some modifications of the poses during those sessions.It is believed in Ashtanga yoga that  moon days are dangerous  and to practice on these days increases the risk of injury.

I am feeling so lethargic that I ended up just staying in bed most of the time.I tend to get easily annoyed and my mind is a  bit crowded.Nothing seems to be right.My reflexes are way too slow and my concentration is so imperfect.I understand it is also a time to be creative in a way but not for me.I am way too clumsy to even lift a spoon this time.

I am taught in yoga and in my spiritual readings that there is a need for me to be gentle with my body on these days.I need to understand that every month, there will always be low moments.Erratic changes of emotions are seemingly incomprehensible but just the same, it pays to be gentle to oneself.

Read more..
http://www.rateyoga.com/moon-days/

Monday, May 16, 2011

Life Is Like A Cup of Coffee - Inspirational Video Movie


I have been with a lot of people who put labels and tags as they relate with one another.They would regard you as mighty if you  own something or that you have the capacity to give in to their favors.It makes me uncomfortable to be with people who seem to only care about what I have physically and materially .It drains my energy.Status symbols do not guarantee our happiness. The video hopefully inspires all of us to live simply and look at the person's heart and judge him not from the outside.

An Inspirational Video 1 - The Law Of Attraction



When things seem to disappoint us, there are always a thousand reasons to smile.Sometimes it's not all about the people around us but it's more on the way we deal with life's ups and downs that matter.People will never be constantly loyal to us.Hypocrisy abounds.There is always that SELF that is waiting for our attention.I guess this video just reminds us to be more sober and recognize that we need to be more believing in our capacity to reach that goal.What better way to start the week than patting our shouldes and say..Hey, it will be alright, ok.

Namaste.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Weeklong highlights

My week has been great as I was able to attend to events  which were both tranquil and exhilarating.On a Thursday, I attended the violin recital of one of my great students/friends way back when I was teaching in an all boys' school.It felt good to be considered an important person in his life and when he called me on stage, I was just very overwhelmed.


he played like  a pro..lovin' the repertoire


after his performance
 I also had the time to eat my favorite guinataan with amy and his brother.Thanks to amy dear who took time to cook it via my request. We also played badminton on a very hot and humid saturday at AERODROME.It was great sweating out and at the same time learning the ropes of the game.I was glad i scored some points.It was not bad for a beginner.


Swimming and challenging the waves at Club Manila East were exciting treats for my soon to be stressful week. I love the water so much that I could not stop being there for hours.



with amy

lovin' the blue and white so much

feeling so refreshed
 I will be facing another uncertain week.I dont know whether or not i will complete the whole set of my interviews.There are books to be read, lessons to be taught, errands to be done  and some clips to be watched.Apart from this, this heart is really hurting each day.I didnt know that the universe could bring me so much love in my heart that I can only let go again because it's the best thing there is.The hurting is beautiful ..YES...Sublime loving it is.    

Namaste everyone!                         
                              

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

WE ARE MARSHALL(2006 movie)

                             
I saw this movie via HBO three years ago but up until now it has left a spot in my heart.Matthew McConaughey was just amazing. He gave justice playing the role of a football coach who wanted so much to give hope to his team and to everyone else who had been into mourning since the death of almost the entire  football team in a plane crash.The plot was no extraordinary feat but stories like this always give me the strength to continue fighting through life no matter how uncertain the results would be.As the new coach McConaughey emphatically contradicted the norm that it's always winning that matters.He stressed that winning and losing do not really matter in any game.It is how we play the game that counts most.I agree.Doing things by heart is enough to make one a winner.In life too, i have often failed and won.This  really dont matter to me largely.I still stand a winner in every streak of the game whatever the result is because i always give my best shot to life.This 2006 flick  made me cry BIG TIME but it also  made me realized once more that there are better things in this game called life than complaining.There are opportunities worth grabbing.I should hold on to my faith.
"The story told in "We Are Marshall" sounds a little like the invention of a screenwriter. An airplane carrying a university football team crashes, killing nearly all of the players, most of the coaching staff and several prominent fans. The university and the close-knit surrounding community are devastated but decide to persevere. A new head coach assembles a team of freshman and athletes who have never played football. This motley crew goes on to win its first home game with a record-breaking number of fans in attendance.

But in spite of sounding like they were made for Hollywood, these events really took place. On November 14, 1970, Southern Airways Flight 932 crashed on approach to Tri-State Airport in Kenova, West Virginia. Marshall University had chartered the plane to carry its football team, the Thundering Herd, home from a game against East Carolina University. All 70 passengers and five crew members were killed. Only a handful of the Thundering Herd were not on board. "(http://entertainment.howstuffworks.com/we-are-marshall.htm)

Balance(A Repost)

from google images
              
According to Aristotle, man's form comprises a soul, which has a plant-like part, an animal part, and a rational part.So how should we live?What does it require to live a good life?He answered that man can only achieve happiness by using all his abilities and capabilities.He held that there are three forms of happiness.The first form is alife of pleasure and enjoyment.The second is that happiness is a life as a free and responsible citizen and the third form of happiness is a life as a thinker and philosopher. Aristotle then emphasized that all three criteria must be present at the same time for man to find happiness and fulfillment.He rejected all forms of imbalance.Had he lived today he might have said that a person who only develops his body lives a life that is just as unbalanced as someone who only uses his head.Both extremes are an expression of a warped way of life. The same principles applies in human relationships, where he advocated the "Golden Mean." We must neither be cowardly nor rash, but courageous(too little courage is cowardice, too much is rashness), neither miserly nor extravagant but liberal (not liberal enough is miserly, too liberal is extravagant). The same goes for eating. It is dangerous to eat too little, but also dangerous to eat too much. The ethics of Plato and Aristotle contain echoes of Greek medicine:only by exercising balance and temperance will I achieve a happy and harmonious life.


 Based on the book "Sophies World ,"by Jostein Gaarder.


Monday, May 9, 2011

Kiss the Rain (Yiruma)



Another one from Yiruma.Betty (Pyeon SI ON) recommended this.God, I just love this.He's such a genius. Lovely melody.Goosebumps!

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Korean Food | Gimbop | Korean Style Sushi Roll

Korean Food Gimbop Korean Style Sushi Roll

On food...simply

If there's one thing that would definitely identify me from the rest of my closest friends, if would be my choice of what to eat.I am not really a voracious eater.My appetite is kind of lame compared to my peers who could eat anything with gusto.Back home then I was the only soul who had slow food intake.I would often envy someone who could consume a lot in an hour.

My choice of food is very basic too.I love simple dishes.I was exposed to a home that often served veggies on the table and so I still love having them now that i am cooking on my own.I love colors on my platter.Mixed veggies appeal to me.Camote tops salad is always a good treat specially when it's raining.I like the taste of salad in any form and style.I just dont like to have so much dressing on it.I love to taste the freshness of everything.Of course fruits are indespensable in my diet.
Bo-kum-bop
Kimchi Fried Rice
김치볶음밥


 @ http://www.trifood.com/gimbop.asp
                         
I am not a meat person ever since.I love chicken of course but i have stopped eating them early last year.Having seafood on my diet is still  important.In time, I guess I will also be giving up on this. There is no special reason for this.I just want these creatures to enjoy living.(:)

I love korean dishes too.Kimchi for me is a good appetizer.I am a big fan of GIM BOP (rice rolls).I love having kimchi fried rice in the morning.I am not a soup person but lately i have to have it since my doctor told me i need to take something hot specially in the morning.


Gim-bop
Korean Style Sushi Roll
김밥

 @ http://www.trifood.com/gimbop.asp

                         
Coffee is not my thing.I had some cups before but i got stomach problems after.I love having green tea. Bread and pastries are closest to my heart.I have a sweet tooth.Chocolates and cakes are my life savers.I can still go for pasta.Meatless of course.

Green tea, Tuna sandwich at The Cofee Bean
                      
I am not a good eater perhaps.I dont go for stuffy food.I like it simple.I admire of course the intricacies of cooking but because I am a busy person, I only have time for simple but healthy options.I can eat an apple or banana for a meal.I guess that's fine with me.

Anyway, why did I spend a page talking blah blahs about food?I guess there's no particular reason for this actually.It's just that earlier today my cousin served me SPAM for breakfast and i ate it.Then I felt i have indulged.Then i was thinking....Man, this isnt my stuff anymore.

You are what you eat is an old adage.I believe this is true.I am what i am eating.I only like simple stuff simply because I am a less complicated individual in the bigger scheme of things.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Ashley Banjo nd Diversity perform on he final of go to Dance HD GTD Fina...



I have been loving Got to Dance(UK) since early last year.Ashley Banjo's a great mentor/judge.His group DIVERSITY rocks.Watch and you'll see why they actually won Britain's and the world's hearts.

Friday, May 6, 2011

The Road NOT Taken

from google images


Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,



And sorry I could not travel both


And be one traveller, long I stood


And looked down one as far as I could


To where it bent in the undergrowth;






Then took the other, as just as fair,


And having perhaps the better claim,


Because it was grassy and wanted wear;


Though as for that the passing there


Had worn them really about the same,






And both that morning equally lay



In leaves no step had trodden black.


Oh, I kept the first for another day!


Yet knowing how way leads on to way,


I doubted if I should ever come back.






I shall be telling this with a sigh


Somewhere ages and ages hence:


Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--


I took the one less traveled by,


And that has made all the difference



...Robert Frost
 
Making a difference is never an easy task to do specially when you know that the society where you live in has so much expectations of you.It is as if they already made a great plan of what would happen to your life at a certain point.I must admit I did have come to that moment when I was about to give in to what other people are expecting from me.It was by the sheer grace that I was able to decide that I am always a different person...so different that I havent  ever wanted to be put in a box.I want my own niche in this world.I am my own life.
 
Just like the speaker who was caught between two diverging roads, I too have been into a lot of crossroads in my life.Choosing between staying single and getting married, doing theology or getting a postgraduate English degree, working abroad or staying in the Philippines for good, being with these friends or staying away from them, doing yoga or swimming....these are just some options that are equally good ones.At the end of the day though, I have to only pick one from each set of priorities. Most of the times though, my options prove to be the radical ones.I havent regretted them.
 
In this world, it is not always cool to be going with the flow of things.The choices that we make reveal the kind of persons that we are.Each option is a manifestation of the kind of values we have in life.Living the alternative life for me is what makes me a better person.It is by making a different route that I distinguish myself from the rest.
 
The road that Im taking now is not an extraordinary one.However, it is this path that makes all the difference.It is in this choice that I become what I feel the universe has wanted me to be.It is in here that I have found bliss...moreso...peace.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Surrender


Family matters always affect me.(I guess everyone does.) Being the eldest (after sister died) I have to assume the responsibilty of being the second parent to 2 sisters and a brother.It's not that this is entirely my obligation.It's just that there is that unwritten rule somewhere deep within that tells me this is what I am supposed to take as a member of this unit. MY FAMILY.

It pains me knowing some things arent going well within my circle.I try to play cool about it simply because I couldnt do anything about my siblings' lives nor they could for me.Even if we are connected by blood, we are still different souls having distinct aspirations in life.It wont change whatever the situation is.All along I thought I would be this tough in handling family concerns but I am now a bit crushed  all because of the vicious cycle that's happening and I need to stop it.

Adulthood doesnt only refer to advancing in age.Moreso, it doesnt only connote marriage or motherhood.It also has to be coupled with responsibility to take on the consequences of the previous actions.It also entails being sensitive to what the others have to feel about certain behaviors  we manifested then and now.Perhaps later.

Today, I talked to my mom.With a crushed spirit, I told her everything I had to.Most of them were actually lamentations.I have enough about everything that a sibling has done to my family.As the eldest, I am so affected about everything that has been happening to her.My poor aging parents have to suffer the consequences of her actions.The energy that she's created is so heavy that I didnt want to go home anymore.

I love her with all my might but I guess she needs to grow up.Somewhere she's got to take her role as a mom, as a daughter and as a sister to all of us.I definitely have to end my messianic tendency.I need to let her go however painful it is.She has her life for sure.She has to know we wont be by her side forever.

My mom knew how angry, devastated and disappointed I am.With all the efforts that each of us did, up until this time, she's not growing up.I guess it's now her time to do it all by herself.I'm so tired hearing the same things.I now understand what my brother once told me.We did what we could but she took it the wrong way.

There is still confusion in my head now.I couldnt see my family personally as I am far from them.I need so badly to go home and scream and get angry at her.I know too going home isnt the best option.I need to let my emotions stabilize.I need to be still.

Now I know where my disturbance came from.Because I am part of a family, I am in most ways influenced about what's happening out there.

I have missed the once vibrant rapport I had with her.I have missed the laughters.I love her BIG TIME but there is always that POINT in being sisters where we just need to pause to fully understand things.WE need to grow.We need to be responsible.She needs to see on her end that she's got a BIG THING to take care of and that we (specially my parents) arent supposed to be dragged down into the bottom because of her "not so well thought of actions."

After an emotional talk with mom today, I just had to keep on chanting.I just had to keep on breathing. I just had to keep lifting my heart.In pain and desperation, I surrender this.

I know she'll read this. When she does, I wish she knew I am praying for her.She's a sister to me and that wont change.

I still believe this episode brings great ending.I still believe she has the best years ahead of her.My heart believes.

OM.

                                    photos taken form google images

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Blessed Tuesday




My previous blog revealed my very lethargic and twisted self.It surfaced an energy that's a bit down.At the end of the day though, I was brought back to where I am supposed to be. MYSELF!


I joined the evening practice at the studio today. My friend Abel was there too.We were waiting for our teacher for some time because she was stuck in  traffic somewhere.I admired the patience of everbody.Each took time to be quiet.The waiting was a chance for me to prepare.I started letting go of the unnecessary burdens in my heart and mind.I began to let loose of my pent up emotions that drag me down.The waiting was long enough for me to focus again to where I am supposed to be..MYSELF!


Teacher Connie arrived telling us that Teacher Nature's still on her way.She had to let Abel and I stay in front so the new students could stay at the back.The practice went well.I just had a hard time with the first balance pose.I guess most of us did. Teacher Connie was encouraging enough that I didnt feel conscious at all.


We did countless VINYASAS but i didnt mind.I felt my good energy was coming back in the middle of the practice.Backbends were good as well as the shoulder stands.Sweat was all over the place.I felt like I swam the whole time.I felt so good.


Teacher Nature assisted the new student.She was at the back observing us too. She closed the practice and told us that we did a good job.I AM VERY GRATEFUL.


After the practice, I had the chance to chat with the other yogins.They were good souls that I couldnt stop thanking them for the great energy they gave me.

I went home and I was still able to teach my students.I am now back.Then I got a message from a friend telling me about my possible interviewee.I was smiling!



The universe has its own way of revealing things.Today, i had so much of those revelations that would change me BIG TIME.My practice today was one of the best.I am forever thankful.


I am off to bed now.Tomorrow's gonna be a great day.I am back and that is really what matters.



Namaste.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Random thoughts

As of my writing this, I still havent any confirmation from my interviewees.There is a feeling of restlessness in me and i guess it would lead to impatience.I try to console myself by saying "C'mon Jen..no one's pressuring you in here." I just cant get people do things according to my time.After all, my women are busy bound call center dolls.

I am a bit lethargic too in a way that I want to linger in bed the whole time.I dont know if it's because of the heat or simply because my mind is a bit twisted lately.A lot of images and thoughts are getting in the way and they are threatening my peace.Just the same, life has to go on each day and I'm making all possible effort i can not to allow myself to be overwhelmed by all these temporal mindset.

There is a strain that pulls me away from the reality at the moment.Some truths are harder to accept than i thought.All I want is just to really let things pass and then perhaps at the end of the day, I am up and about again. Yoga practice helps let go.Om.