Sunday, July 31, 2011

Wu Xia - A great film

I had the chance to watch this great film when I was in Singapore.At first, I was thinking it was just another boring low budgetted film.I have not been watching Martial arts movies for a while so I had no idea what this movie was all about.

We were seated on the first row just few meters away from the screen.I, all the more thought that I would not enjoy watching it.I was wrong.

The storytelling was great.With the subtitles, i was able to grasp what the story had to tell me.I love everything about each actor.The culture of the village was also transported to me. I was brought back to a time when I lived in a small town where each one knew one another.

The movie depicted simplicity and complexity rolled into one.It's subtle in its attack that I was captivated with the every line each character delivered.

More than anything else...I love the theme on ENERGY.

Yes, we are made of this.

This movie is not only about martial arts.It's about life,Specifically, the will to change for the better, the love for family, friendship, culture, tradition and LIFE itself.

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Love-filled Saturday

It has been raining again here.Series of typhoons are expected to hit my country and it is not a good news, I would say. Despite this, life for the Filipinos continues.

Being at the shala this morning was heaven for me.I've met new kindred souls.It was pure good energy. Connie was our teacher and she handled  us well.I was totally awed at how my body has become very   flexible. She let me do the standing pose from my full back bends.Because I was overwhelmed, I ended up hitting my head on the floor.It doesnt hurt though.My second attempt was cool.I was able to stand with Connie's help of course.I was a bit shy as the other women were watching me.

My heart was glad too because a new student told me that I was very good. Connie affirmed that I was a regular practitioner and that I was blessed with flexibility.I couldnt agree more.My desire to embrace this lifestyle is paying off.I am certain the universe will lead me to inspire other women too.The mermaid in me is wanting to go on a yoga retreat someday.

I was craving for kimbap (Korean rice rolls) so I ended up dining at Duri, my favorite korean resto in Galeria.I had to pay my bills afterwards and called home.I was already getting so tired as I was still having my period.I did a lot of errands actually today but I was joyful.I had enjoyed my being self reliant.

Ipod's still playing now.Memories of me and my 214 are coming back.There's no one else in my heart but him.I know it was a BIG decision to let each other go but that was pure love.This heart if given a chance to fall in love again still wish to be in a place where purity and innocence abound.Yes, Love moved in mysterious ways between us.I pray he's alright.It has been 7 years.I am glad I had found my great love at a place and time that werent even expected.

There is always that mystery in loving.The wonder of being led to each other's arms...then let go.What remains is my heart that is so happy that I have met him.I have no regrets.I feel so blessed.I am grateful even after 7 years.

Stay in love everyone!Dont hold on too much.Real love happens when one learns to let go.


Thursday, July 28, 2011

Three Nights in Singapore

I have missed writing.I have been very busy the past few days.Specifically, I went to Singapore for a three day vacation with Reena and Jay R. I had a blast, I must say.

With Jay r and Reena upon arrival

It was my first trip abroad and I was a little jittery knowing that the Immigration officials might find reason for me not to travel.I was glad I made it without difficulty.It was just disappointing that someone who didnt know exactly about travelling had to scare us off but that was forgiven.

the skyscrapers

Travel was fun.After more than three hours we arrived safely.Jay R was already waiting for us.I love taking the taxi, the bus and of course the train. Food was also fantastic.I felt like I was still in Manila but it's just the cleaner and more peaceful version.I love people watching.It's a nice way to learn other culture.

My first bus ride

Visiting the temples was the best thing for me. I had the chance to meditate shortly at the Buddhist temple.Peace overwhelmed me.

There were friendships made too.I was being introduced to some of Jay r's choirmates.They were such good company.

at the Buddhist temple

The weather was humid i must say.Still, it didnt dampen my spirit.It was a great moment for me to be away from my computer for a few days.Forgetting that i had so much work to do was kind of surreal but that was what actually happened.I was also glad that i was able to do yoga in our hotel room.My two buddies also joined me.Jay r even did a backbend.What an achievement!

I arrived in Manila last Tuesday.I didnt get a good sleep as we travelled so late.It was raining profusely and as of my writing this, the sun has not been that generous enough.I am still glad I made it to Singapore.I am very grateful for Reena and Jay R for being very good to me.Their generosity is always appreciated.

I am looking forward for my next Asian travel.I hope i can make it to Malaysia for the conference.In shallah, yes!

Here are some photos of my three day escapade...

that's the Mandarin behind us

with reen while waiting for the movie (WUXIA) to start

green and red ladies at the poolside

infront of the Hindu temple
First food @a Thai resto--soft crabss...

yoga at the hotel

Reen and I eating ice cream's just a hot day!

with Rocio by the bay

Under my umbrella

at the airport, going back home

Thursday, July 21, 2011

on a rainy thursday

After a few days bout with the heat, it has finally rained.As I am writing this, it's still raining cats and dogs outside.I am  relieved and sad at the same time.I know that there are those who are terribly worried about whether or not this rain will go on for days and will leave a lot of areas flooded again.I pray things will be alright.

I had my practice at the shala last Wednesday. I was with 9 yogins.I didnt do ny savasana to start off my practice.I had 3 deep breathings instead.I was glad my teacher noticed that my chaturanga's are nicer this time.I made the primary poses with ease.It was only in the mariachi's C and D that i had to be assisted.I was told to twist more.I felt the strain in my elbows already.I was very tired.My teacher asked If i was alright because my breaths were labored.I knew I wasn't. The heat has been affecting me.I just recovered from my UTI.Anyway, I went on with my practice and for the first time, I did my headstand at the shala.My teacher was surprised to  see me learn fast.I was glad. I finished my practice with a very long savasana.I could still hear the other women doing their thing.They're very advanced already and I couldnt help but admire them.I realized I was still a baby.Im still glad I was with them.They're inspiring.I only realized on my way home that I missed the four basic poses.My bad!

My monthly period is approaching.Moods swings are evident.Body is starting to feel heavy.Cravings are many.I am praying I would sail smoothly while entering this state.Om.

It will only be a day before I'll fly to Singapore.I hope things at the immigration will be alright.It's too bad I couldn't see my parents.I also would like to watch the all star games.Let go Jenny.

It's still raining now.I hope and pray people won't get sick.
Be safe everyone!


Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows Quotes

So the magic saga ends.I am not really a big fan of Harry Potter but I decided to watch this last journey with my friend Amy. The effects were great as expected.There were life lessons learned.I screamed at some parts.It was in its own way a great magical story.

Here are some quotes I kind of love.

Albus Dumbledore
Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?

Ron Weasley
(with regard to Peeves singing his victory song) That really captures the scope and tragedy of the thing, doesn't it?

(Engraved on Dobby's grave)
Here lies Dobby, a free elf.

Luna Lovegood
I think the answer is: a circle that has no beginning.

Hermione Granger
Mudblood, and proud of it!

We did it, we bashed them, wee Potter's the one,
And Voldy's gone moldy, so now let's have fun!

Sirius Black
[On being asked if dying hurt] Dying? Not at all. Quicker and easier than falling asleep.

That Potter lives is due more to my errors, than to his triumphs... I have been careless, and so have been thwarted by luck and chance, those wreckers of all but the best laid plans. But I know better now. I understand those things that I did not understand before. I must be the one to kill Harry Potter, and I shall be.

Albus Dumbledore
It is a curious thing, Harry, but perhaps those who are best suited to power are those who have never sought it. Those who, like you, have leadership thrust upon them, and take up the mantle because they must, and find to their own surprise that they wear it well.

Dudley Dursley
(to Harry) I don't think you're a waste of space.

Albus Dumbledore
Do not pity the dead, Harry, pity the living. Above all, pity those who live without love. By returning you may ensure that fewer souls are maimed and fewer families are torn apart. If that seems to you a worthy goal, then we say goodbye for the present.

Hermione Granger
Wands are only as powerful as the wizards who use them. Some wizards just like to boast that theirs are bigger and better than other people's.

Albus Dumbledore
Power was my weakness and my temptation.

Luna Lovegood
(after McGonagall says Lord Voldemort is attacking) Ooh! We can say that name now?

Albus Dumbledore
That which Voldemort does not value, he takes no trouble to understand. Of house-elves and children's tales, of love, loyalty, and innocence, Voldemort knows and understands nothing. Nothing. That they all have a power beyond his own, a power beyond the reach of any magic, is a truth he has never grasped.

(Engraved on Rowena Ravenclaw's diadem)
Wit beyond measure is man's greatest treasure.

Ronald Weasley
All's fair in love and war, and this is a bit of both.

Mr. Ollivander
The wand chooses the wizard, that much has always been clear to those of us who have studied wandlore.

Harry Potter
(to Ron and Hermione kissing) Oi! There's a war going on here!

Ron Weasley
(referring to Draco Malfoy's son) Make sure you beat him in every test, Rosie. Thank God you inherited your mother's brains.

Fred Weasley
For instance, this new idea that You-Know-Who can kill with a single glance from his eyes. That's a Basilisk, listeners. One simple test, check whether the thing that's glaring at you has got legs. If it has, it's safe to look into its eyes, although if it really is You-Know-Who, that's still likely to be the last thing you ever do.


Saturday, July 16, 2011

Saturday high and low


I arrived just in time for the yoga class today and I saw Nature outside the shala.She introduced me to B, a teacher from YM MakatiI saw unfamiliar faces when I entered.It was B who facilitated the practice and Nature just assisted. I honestly felt sluggish as the practice progressed.I was not used to the people practicing with me, moreso, the teacher.She's a good teacher actually but I was used with the personal tutelage of my original teachers.Nature was kind enough to assist me often.I have missed Jon.I have missed that voice.I have missed the encouragement coupled with a firm and strict demeanor.I was glad another Jennifer was practicing with me.I had company.I ended the practice grateful that I survived despite my sluggishness.(Is this the right term?)


I had lunch a The Pancake House and  had tuna sandwich again with the delicious carrot shake.Afterwards, i went shopping for a nice bag, some cosmetics and of course my food.I am going to travel soon hopefully so I bought some of the basics.

I was already so tired when I was inside the taxi. I ended up opening the window and not able to close it back. The driver thankfully was understanding.As I entered my house, I noticed something on the floor,It was a letter from World Vision.As I opened it, I saw that it was the progress report of the child I am sponsoring.He is Lowell Android Candido.I was a teary eyed because I felt I have done something great in this world.With the little amount I give every month, I am able to help a soul go to school.I know I could still do more.Part of my plan is to send him some items he needs in school and for himself.I need to save for this.

I felt tired and down today but with the letter from Lowell, i was elavated.I cant thank God enough.

Then there is just the recent news from home that mom and dad are coming back to Manila to watch the NBA/PBA all star games.Now, what a shame. I wont be with them for Im Singapore bound hopefully.

Anyway,it's another week ahead.I pray for more good health and wisdom.I hope I can write even a bit.


Friday, July 15, 2011

Friday It is!

It's my mom's birthday today.I am glad I was able to speak with her. I guess she's getting a great one because we had an advance celebration last weekend with all of the family members around. It's a great time.

I still havent written anything new. I am at a loss for ideas.I really dislike deadlines.I just wish I am a better technical writer.Anyway, tomorrow's yoga will be intended for me to be granted wisdom.

I am kind of edgy about my trip to Singapore.It will be my first travel abroad and I've heard from a friend that the Immigration officers are more strict this time.I dont know what's in store at the airport. I am fidgety at the thought of me being interrogated but hey, in the real sense of the word, there is always that force that will make things alright.I just wish I am more calm this time.Oh, I almost forgot...It's  a moonday indeed.:)

There are always some suprises in store each day. As of the other day, i have been practricing yoga at home.I didnt exactly do the full series except on a Wedneday since I am still having some pains in my pelvis. I focused on my surya namaskars and the Bujai...and the headstand.It was very unbelievable that I could already lift my legs as they're intertwining my arms. I fell at some points but I could easily adjust not to fall hard. I love the feeling of being lifted with only my both  arms on the floor. What's more suprising was I could already do my half headstand up to 8 counts without falling. I felt that my arms and body had adjusted to the strain.I fell for a few times but I was very happy to know that I can now find my balance in this inverted pose.I couldnt help but jump  for joy and utter words of praises and thanks for this gift of balance.I am sure I'll be able to perfect this in time.Right now, I am so happy with this milestone.

Tomorrow's yoga day at the shala.I wish everyone a great weekend.


Wednesday, July 13, 2011

On a thursday morning

I woke up with a clogged nose and a heavy head.My body is very susceptible to all the major illnesses all around this month.Because of this, I tend to linger in bed or get myself lazy.My mind at this juncture is incapable of thinking wholly about good thoughts. There is always that feeling of low self esteem, insecurity, jealousy, annoyance, withdrawal and what have you.They, of course, come in episodes. I dislike it but there is nothing I can do but deal with these stuff. I am fully aware of my vulnerability.I knew from the start this will come.

I want to make a change in the way i deal with my life. It's not that mine is a bad one at present.It's just that I want to find more space for my writing.It's not a piece of cake trying to shift gear though because there are things to be considered.I fend for myself and I help my family too. The idea of having a break from my workload and just  go on a secluded place and write and meditate haunts me. I try pushing them away from my mind because i dont want to be enveloped by this desire. I need to be practical this time.

Living alone has its ups and downs. Generally, I love the fact that I have become very independent. What with me cooking, cleaning, doing the laundry, paying bills and all.There is always that sense of joy knowing I am able to take care of myself. I have been doing this for the last 6 or so years. My dad praised me even for my  being strong willed.

The donwside of being left on my own is not many but when it is time to whine it becomes infinite.At this juncture, I am needing someone to hug me, to cook for me and to comfort me.It's funny knowing I am pushing away those that want to marry me. I dont know what crap  is in my brain  until now that i   am not yet able to accept any man for me to settle down with.I just feel perhaps I am way complete without them by my side. I know there will be raised eyebrows for this argument.

Yes, I am whiny now.Because I am still a bit physically fallible.Today is the Thursday and I dont really know what to to do with my writing.I need to declog.I guess the mat would help me out.A few om's will eventually make the universe bless me with good health and wisdom.

I have written a lot.Now, i need some grub.I am hoping I will write something lighter later.It is not cool to be sick but hey, it's gonna be alright soon.


Random thoughts 3

This self has not fully recovered from being sick.I had a bout of Urinary Tract Infection for days and it equally disrupted my life. I was thankful that I was still able to make it when my family was around.I was already tired though.

I had to take antibiotics to relieve the pains.I had a hard time sleeping at night because I needed to pee every now  and then.I was already crying in my prayers and literally asking my Maker to let me rest because I was already very tired.I still had to teach my students.I got irrited easily.I even forgot to breathe.It was an ordeal that I wish I wouldnt go back to.There is no one responsible for it though....but ME!Stress and all eh.

I am better now.I did my home practice this morning.It was not that painful doing the vinyasas.I was almost there with my headstand.

Teaching was alright today.It was a bit humid so I was sweating a lot. I could laugh more now too. I am slowly getting back in shape. I didnt really know whether I would be happy knowing I am losing weight.I need to eat better again.

I am at the crossroads now.I have not yet finalized my paper.My mentor wanted me to join the Conference this November.I also want to yet this mind isnt cooperating.I tried researching and writing again but I've got no drive.I have so many thoughts getting in the way.I need to attend to my house, my students, and all.I wish I had more than 24 hours in a day.I guess I just need to slow down again.

I would understand if i would not be able to join.It is an honor to be appreciated by the council but if this lethargy continues until next week, I guess I would decline the invitation.Will I regret not going? I dont think I would.Still, i will try my very best to accomplish what I can.May the good Universe lead me where I am supposed to be.

I am parking now.My eyes are getting tired.It's nice to feel better again.Sleep well everyone.


Tuesday, July 12, 2011

My family's visit

upon arrival, @Savory Chicken
My weekend was very busy as I had to attend to my family who came for a short visit.My brother and I had to take care of their needs.The 8 of us confined ourselves in my little abode.It was a riot as expected.The very energetic clan gathered so there was no time wasted.Conversations about life overwhelmed the place.There were times that i got so annoyed as I was already showing signs of a bad health.It was my first time after so many years that we had done such a get together.Most of the time we were caught sharing meals.Back at home, though we were in one house we didnt get to eat at the table together as we were also very busy with individual affairs.I was very glad for the mealtime   that we shared over the weekend.

Papa and Mama
It was only during this visit that I clearly noticed how my parents aged a lot. Papa, who was the usual active person is thinning.Mama has been limping too. My heart until now aches as I want so much for them to be healthy always. I can only do what i can to really help them ease their lives.

My sisters are  also grown ups now.Despite their  still fun loving nature, there is always that sense of adulthood in them.Their sons are already growing.They need to grow more than these bunch of gigglers.

with my sisters, Dynah and Doreen
I am alone again in my sanctuary.I have missed the voices of the people here.I have missed my nephews' bantering, my sisters' annoying remarks, my parents' bickering and of course my brothers pestering me at times.These are all in a good way, of course.

What is family for me then?
Simply it is a unit of unique individuals. The imperfections that we have are what make this family click.I wish for more moments like last  weekend.

with Mama and Bro boyet watching PBA games

with my nephews,Andhy and goodie


Thursday, July 7, 2011

Things will be ok

from google images
This self is having a bad digestion again.I really dont know what to eat anymore.I guess it's not really the food that I'm eating that makes my tummy uncomfortable but it's the kind of life i had these days.It's not that my lifestyle is bad but it is really because I have so much in my plate for the past weeks. My thoughts arent really consistent since i have so much preoccupations.What with my family coming for a weekend visit, my  case studies, my readings, my online classes, and my yoga teacher leaving.Then there is already that little excitement felt about my trip to Singapore by the end of this month.There is also my overwhelming desire to learn the headstand and all those difficult poses that Margaux has introduced me too.Now, all these and more are popping into my system and because I'm a thinker, a part of me suffers.Then this is the best time to just stay on the mat and do the savasanas.Boy, I missed it today.

This thinker has got to decide by the way which to prioritize.Indigestion is caused by eating things up even when there is no need to. So, today with a deep breathing, I must fix my eyes on my students who are hungry for my attention.Then there is my family who will be coming over tomorrow.There will be seven souls in the house for two days in my little space and I wish the Universe will allow all of us to breathe. I have to give up some classes to be with them.Now, the dilemna is what to do with this clan on Saturday as I really do wish to attend  Jon's last class.The answer will be revealed tomorrow evening.

I went to see my mentor today and I had a blast. I just had information overload.There were a lot of ideas coming in and out of my brain but the thought of finishing it in time for the presentation paralyzes me.I have to stop thinking about dates then and just do what I have to do. Still, there is a need to set the writing aside, at least for the weekend since my  family will be around.

Now i need to rest knowing there is that powerful being who knows what he is about. The heck with my worries.But honestly, I am still tensed now. Need Hugs!

Got to park.This little heart is trying to say something.In the end everything will be ok Jenny.


Diversity Perform on the Got To Dance Final 2011

Well, Ashley Banjo and his diversity has never failed to suprise me. Check this out!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Blah blahs :)

I had a very terrible toothache today.It was so painful that I ended up cancelling one class.I went out to buy some pain relievers but it took almost an hour before the pain subsided.I had to take 2- 500 milligrams of this mefenamic acid thing.I hate taking medicine but I had no choice.The pain was just too much to bear. I had always tried seeing my dentist but the idea would slip out of my mind  when everything's alright.I also dont have any great chance to be at a clinic for hours and have my dental blah blahs..I am hoping i can  do that before i'll travel to singapore.DO IT JENNY!

I started writing my analyses for my case studies.I am almost done with all the themes.The next thing would be for me to analyze each making use of the Catholic social teachings on work principles.This is I guess the hardest part because i have no exact idea what to do. It is my first time to tackle a case study and I really find it challenging.I am trying not to be pressured by schedules.The thought of presenting my paper to a large audience excites me but at the same time scares the hell out of me too.I guess it won't kill me anyway. The mere thought too that I would graduate with a theology degree is making me giggle.The heavens must have been giggling too.who would think that I would eventually end up being a theologian? BLISS!

Got to Dance is kicking off with its final. I just love Ashley Banjo more each time.

I need to have classes now.Thanks for reading my blah blahs.

Monday, July 4, 2011


Here are some of my favorite lines/quotes from one great movie I saw just recently.

Photo from Transformers: Dark of the Moon
from google images

Buzz Aldrin: "You cannot believe what we are seeing..."
Mission Control: "We are not alone, after all, are we?"
Buzz Aldrin: "No, sir. We are not alone."

Optimus Prime: "Everything humans know of our planet we were told had been shared. You lied to us. You've made a grave mistake."
Walter Cronkite: "We now have had confirmation of loss of signal from Apollo 11. Apollo 11 is on the far side of the moon."
Mission Control: "Neil, you are dark on the rock. The mission is a go. You have 21 minutes."

Sam: "The Decepticons have been planning this for 50 years. They're back to start the war."

Optimus Prime: "You may lose your faith in us, but never in yourselves. From here, the fight will be your own."

Mearing: "If you breathe a word of what you've seen here, you will do time for treason."

Agent Simmons: "Years from now they're gonna ask: Where were you when they took over the planet?"

Sam (to Carly): "You'll be fine, I promise."

Robert Epps: "It's over. I'm sorry, but it's over."

Sam: "Where is she?"

Sam Witwicky: Humans are working with the Decepticons.

Sam Witwicky: It's starting!

Optimus Prime: From here the fight will be your own.

Simmons: Where were you when they took over the planet?

Sergeant Epps: It's over, I'm sorry but it's over.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

This Heart is a bit sad...but joyful


our very first photo during my earlier practices

It just dawned on me today that my very first yoga teacher for six months will be leaving soon.He will have his last class with us next Saturday.As for me, today might be my last with him.My family will be coming over for their weekend visit and  I am not certain if I could still join his class then. I am beginning to be sad.

I had one of the greatest practices today.While on my full backbends, he guided me to stand on my feet.I couldnt really do it when I attended a mysore class, but with him as my teacher, it seemed so easy.He asked me to do it twice with his arms circling my waist.Boy, I did it!

on my birthday at a Greek Resto, with the book he gave
I gave him our send off gift after the practice.Jiah and Angel weren't there so I was the only one who handed it to him.It was a bit frustrating that the size was small.I hope the store could still change it to medium.We talked for a while as usual.

He hugged me afterwards.I remember the first time that we embraced.I felt my teacher's warmth.I was so touched by the gesture.I will forever remember the friendship that we share.

Reality sank in while I was travelling on the way to the pancake house to have lunch.I wanted to cry because my heart was already very heavy. I didnt even know it was coming. I thought I was ready for his leaving as I had learned it for a few months already.I just couldn't cry in front of other people at the mall.I wanted to run home and hide in my bed and just really let my emotions out. I needed to compose myself though.I had to pay my bills and do some food shopping.More importantly, I need to focus.MY anxiety can be controlled, baby.

When I reached home, I looked at our photos and talked to it.I thanked him again and then I cried.I stayed in bed and just dwelt on whatever it was I was feeling.I just had separation anxiety.Who wouldn't have?He is such a special soul for me.My dreams were all revelations of the connection that the two of us have.

Jon with me, angel and jiah during our send off lunch for him @Kebab's factory
Now, that he will be away, Im sure it will be a different vibe in the shala.The universe certainly will help me strengthen my heart.At this juncture, I am just slowly getting better.Crying is healing.

Jon is a great soul.In time, we will meet again.Wherever and whenever, they don't really matter.Here in my heart, he is already etched.My dear guru will surely be missed but I am very happy he's spreading his wings again.

Farewell Jon.Farewell my teacher.Stay peaceful and Happy.

My love and prayers are with you.OM.

Friday, July 1, 2011

Amy's Day

with the cake I gave her
Today is Amy's birthday.I am so grateful that she chose to celebrate it with me and with his brother Donn.The three of us invaded DADS in Greenhills.It was my first time there and believe me I couldnt eat more than what my belly could contain.It was a buffet lunch and I guess i had eaten much. Amy and Donn urged me to eat more but I didnt have anymore the strength to do so.I opted for seafood and vegetarian dishes.I loved the Filipino delicacies too.I also had the taste of some Japanese variety.I realized one thing though...Buffet isnt really for me.I am not a big eater and paying much isnt really worth it. Here are some photos of that great day.

ahhh fruits
japanese variety

stir fry veggies


cute dessert of i dont know the name



ice cream yey!

me, amy and donn

crabs, shrimp, fish and first dish
I am glad for today.I wish my dear friend Amy a very happy birthday.I am very appreciative of the friendship we've shared all this time.She's like a family to me already.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY again my friend.